Fail.

I should have probably stuck to doing art as an electiveTT^TT Whyyyy did I choose so many scientific-logical subjects?!! Or maybe just did music cause it would have been fun... though I'll probs still suck at it, aggghh... i think maybe i should have just done dt....
Just when I thought I was all great at chem, i find out that theres a whole load of other crap I didn't study for cause I was too busy procrascinating... I really hate myself for doing thatTTwwwTT At least yr 11 isn't counted into the HSC.... still I'm sooooo screwed... gahhh.. and then theres maths and phy right after that... i'm going to die@www@ screw priceline, I'm just gonna quit the job without even having been there for an actual pay-day if I can't get my marks good. plus i doubt priceline wants me working there, its been uhh a month?!! and they still haven't told me what time I'm supposed to go in for work=www="
If they don't want me to work there, I would prefer them to just tell me, rather than dragging me through serveral months, until I just decide to give up on the job instead. Wahhh... I've realised that if I chose more 'creative' subjects it'll probs work out better for me...
Doing music would be nice, other than the theory stuff, I would love to play on the piano during lessons, even though I'm not good at it, but practice makes perfect and whatever, though I would still have to worry loads about the theory.. ohh well no use trying to wish what could have happened, if I want to change electives in the end, not to late ...right?? Well at least I hope so...
Even if I did something I would have maybe liked more, I'm such a lazy ass, I would probs fail at the theory for something else.... and instead of talking  myself and not doing anything productive, I should probably either do some more work or go to sleep... I plan to wake at five or sthn in the morning, go phsycho and do lots of work.私は絶対頑張ってね～