One Eye Day

holding book upsdie down by the way~

Bwahahahhaah~ My new EVIL looking picture... kinda hurts my eyes with the bright coloursXD Hurt my eye so much my eye has gotten infected and now everytime I open and close it, I feel like I got punched.

Orr... Maybe it's just from dusting shelves or something yesterday.....^^;

Ohhh weelll... at least it's better than when I woke up, I kept thinking what I would do if my right eye would be lost forever...

She almost smiled, it was a smirk at most as she expertly ran her fingers across the piano, producing a creepy melody. She no longer smiled anymore- without her sight there was nothing much to smile about. There was nothing much she could do being blind. So instead, she just kept playing and playing, the piano was already breaking down from the overuse of its chords clanging against each other to produce the musical notes.

She kept playing as the world passed day by day with their own lives. They would always hear the piano music that drifted out their house, most went on their way, barely noticing it, others would stop by for a few seconds or so before they also went on with whatever better things they had to do. 

In her distant mind she could hear screams, but she ignored it and kept on playing. The floor beneath her feet was moving, what was happening? Was the world breaking down? She vaguely thought, but her fingers did not leave the piano. Suddenly her feet could not feel the floor anymore, the last thing going through her mind was that she was falling.

looll, I'm such a depressing person, I keep thinking of such randomated depressing stories... ^^; Mahh whatever~  But if ever do go blind, since I can pretty much only hear, I'll probably become in love with music, then I'll have to get reaaally good at piano... or singing. But I doubt I'll be good at singing, not that I'm good at piano either... but hopefully practice=perfect~
Hmmm.... self portraiture can be pretty fun=) Maybe I'll try one with izzy... a double self potrait, next she comes over or when I go over to her place... 
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Woww.... I actually can sorta play the piano without looking... its verry hard though, and right now im typing without looking, so i'm guessing this thing is gonna be full of mistakes.....
its hard to play the piano when blindfolded, and i keep presssing on the wrong notes, for some reason when i play with my eyes close, no blindfold, its a lil easier, i think i can probably see movements with the back of my eye??? hmmm/// i wonder if theres some sort of scientific research pn this kinda thing, thats probably why i cant see with my eyes closed, cause i cant sense the movements??


and now that i open my eyes, i'm actually better at typing without looking, i even know when i type something wrong and backspace... ohh wait theres one mistake... but its just /// and ..., so similiar ne~


hehe~~ maybe ill try typing/ playing piano with my eyes closed more often~
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actually.... maybe that won't be such a good idea.... eversince i finished playing the piano with my eyes closed, my eyesight seem to have blurred... unless it was always like that... even with glasses on, its still blurred.... omg i reallly hope i'm not actually going blind... scary thought0www0""
at least its better than the first time i opened my eyes, even with glasses on, my eyesight was worse than usually without glasses on.... gahhh sigghh.... horrible day.... and im rambling about random stuff to my imaginary friendXD
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thanks to the eye ointment thingie for my eye, my eye hurts even more, and i pretty much have only one functioning eye because my right eye is all blurry and hurts just as much as it did when i first woke up=www="" signs of recovery????
gahh... i really doubt it, everyone seems hell bent on not letting me sleep. first my dad won't lemme go back to sleep at 9;30 cause i have a doctors appointment at 10;30. i really don't need 55 min to get ready for a 5 min walk to the doctors. and the doctor appointment didnt even happen til 11 anyway- it was pretty crowded, i guess thats a good thing, if the doctor's place was desserted, i would be a lil worried to know if i'll live to see the next day.
when i went back to sleep at... uhh 6;00 or so?? christinas wonderful friend decided to give a call, i wasn't a happy person when i answered the phone...mahh. 5 minutes later when i went back to bed, my sis and my mum came home, my bedroom walls are really thin, i can hear clearly what goes outside my room.
another 5 mins later after i was drifting off to lalaland again, my mum  walked into my room, talking about the eye ointment thing, than she left without the eye ointment. and once again as i reallly desperately want my sleep again, my dad comes demanding how much $$ i spend in febuary. he expects me to keep a note of every single penny i spend and sepcifically on what, which i obviously don't cause its stupid. and not like i would remember when i'm trying to SLEEP.my mum comes in and blinds me by oning my light, its so friggin bright and yellow it pisses me off. there was still light outside my window, but that is white-ish depressing light that doesn't kill my eyes. i get that stupid ointment on and i finally have peace... for an hour anyways, before my dad wakes me up and tell me its dinner time.
sighh i reaallly regret telling christina taht her friend called, i get shouted at for not telling her earlier, cause i was trying to SLEEEP. than all of a sudden i find myself being criticised about my phone manners, and lack of enthusiasm for working at priceline(i can't imagine anyone being able to soo joyfully stack shelves, dust shelves and floors and serve customers cause thats the best job in the world isnt it? yes i just loooovve priceline ohh soo very much)... i could always go to kfc.. and theres gloria jeans looking for ppl too.
and now i unfortunately cant sleep cause i can't decide whether i'm too hungry or too full, and my eye is annoying me so its not like i feel like doing any school work, cause it'll probably look really ugly when i'm finished with it. so instead i'll just babble on about random stuff since theres nothing much to do.... gosh i have realllyy weird dreams.... mahh ill go see if i can anythign better to do.. otherwise i guess i'll just be rambling off on my blogs again..